Looking through old photographs-
My wife is undergoing therapy for PTSD to do with my daughter’s suicide over 15 years ago, but still a significant part of our lives. She is determined to find a way to keep the good memories without the horror.
Part of the project involves remembering the good times- and finding ways to replace the awful images with positive ones.
So, I got out the old albums and we’ve been going through them. (Always click for full size.)
Erin and her friend at the wreck of the Peter Iredale,
Oregon Coast, 1992 or so
Erin Portrait- She was beautiful
Family sing-along night:
For most of the time our kids were kids we had a Sunday night tradition of singing songs together; each person got to pick a song and we’d end with “Goodnight Irene” (without the depressing lyrics).
Erin usually picked “You are my sunshine”. Julie can’t sing that song or listen to it anymore because it brings her too much pain. (Me, I like the song and it helps me remember the good times.)
The tradition continued with everyone getting ice-cream (in their special bowl)followed by watching the Simpsons on TV.
It’s my favorite of our family traditions- we kept it up until the youngest one was 15 or so- except we still do the ice-cream and Simpsons. These days it’s just Me, Julie and Matt (19). Andrew is down in the SF area (Berkley now I think). I get low carb/ sugar free ice-cream; it tastes like crap but it’s still a treat.
How did this get in there?
Kids together in the backyard
Erin picks flowers in the “wild” area of our large yard (this was the house the kids grew up in. We lost the house when I lost my mind in 2004- along with my job, my reputation, etc. We lived there for 20 years. I wonder if my wife ever forgave me for getting so sick. (Foreclosed after my prolonged hospital stay left us bankrupt and unable to make payments. So it goes.)
Taken at the end of the Falcon Crest trail
from Short Sands Beach on the Oregon Coast
There are kids growing in the trees! Again, our backyard around 1992
Playing music with Erin, around 1992
The last picture I have of my dad, who died of lung cancer/ mesothelioma in 1992. It was caused by asbestos exposure during his 23 years in the Navy as a Gunner’s Mate and Chief Gunner’s Mate. The big artillery was packed in asbestos.
The group shot that was extracted from-
Nawang Khechog- The human Heart is for Kindness:
10 The Human Heart Is for Kindness
Mississippi John Hurt- Nearer My God to Thee
Mississippi John Hurt – Nearer My God To Thee
Cat Stevens (now Yusef Islam)- Trouble
Cat Stevens – Trouble
Along this route (below) are many shallow ditches in which frogs lay their eggs. Most of these dry up before 75% of the tadpoles have reached maturity. My annual tadpole rescue effort is almost ready to begin. The deadline is about June 10th, after the rains stop and the shallow wetlands dry quickly, leaving tens of thousands of immature froglings dried and dead in the baked mud (in this area alone). I only rescue a few hundred a year, let them grow up in a tank on the back deck.
When they’re ready they leave.
bye for now